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Monday, March 27, 2017
Last email
March 27th, 2017
I have fought a good fight, I have
finished my course, I have kept the faith
2 Timothy 4:7
Well this was my last full week as
a missionary, and it was a really good week!
I absolutely loved the women's
session of General Conference! It never ceases to amaze me whenever it feels
like the talks were directed to me, and answered all my questions perfectly. I
loved that it was mentioned a lot that we should center our lives on the
Savior. That was a good reminder for me since it may be harder to avoid the distractions
once I go home to the real world, but I truly want to live in such a way that
will invite the Spirit to be with me all the time.
On Tuesday morning, Sister
Palmer called us and said she was going to come teach with us! That is always
really intimidating and at first we were just freakin' out, but it went so
well! She was with us while we taught a less-active, Hna Castro. We taught her
about faith, and about reading the scriptures and listening to the Spirit. I
was amazed at our teaching abilities there; the Spirit was definitely the
teacher there. Afterwards, I was really touched at how Sister Palmer praised us
for how well we taught.
Later that same day, we had our
departure interviews with President Palmer. I seriously just cried the entire
interview. I had a mix of emotions: sad that I'm going home but so happy for
everything that I've learned as a missionary. He told me that when I go home,
my family may not even recognize me. I've changed so much. I was so touched by
the genuine love that President Palmer has for me. He is just amazing.
We saw the less-active young women,
Axxx and Exxx Gxxx. They have opened up just a little since we started
visiting them. They both prayed for the first time in years in front of us!
That was super exciting. They are really sweet and I hope they return to Church
soon. Attached is the picture of them and their dad.
We were knocking on doors one day
and at one door, a man named Axxx answered. We talked to him and he asked us
where our church was. We told him and he was like, "I drive by that church
every day. When I first moved to Manteca 15 years ago, I saw that church and I
thought, 'I want to go there someday' but I never have. And now you're
here." We were so excited! We gave him as a referral to the English
missionaries and we are so excited for them to teach him.
For my last district meeting, we
were told to come with a question in mind. And then we simply read the
scriptures together. We read chapters 1 Nephi 8 and Enos 1. It was incredible
to see how Heavenly Father was able to help each of us with our questions. Then
we each bore our testimonies. It was a perfect last meeting. The Spirit was so
strong.
I was reading Mosiah 28:3
yesterday, and I remember thinking, "I don't know if I have as much desire
to save others than Alma and the sons of Mosiah." But then as we were
teaching some people yesterday, I was thinking about the time in my life where
I had gone through a really hard trial, and I kind of stopped going to church
for a while. I remember feeling incredibly lonely and felt abandoned by God.
That was so depressing, and I don't want anyone to feel that way. That gave me
such a strong desire to never let anyone feel that way. So, like Alma and those
other powerful missionaries, I do have that desire to save God's children.
I have never felt so close to my
Savior. I am so thankful that He called me to serve a mission. I wouldn't trade
these 18 months for anything in the world. It's been the most amazing journey.
I know without a doubt that Jesus Christ is my Savior and Redeemer. He restored
His gospel through the prophet Joseph Smith. I know that my Savior loves me and
knows me perfectly. I know that He speaks to us through His living prophet and
apostles today. I know that the Book of Mormon is the word of God. I know that
this is His true church.
Love,
Hermana Aburto
District picture!
Us with Hno Rxxx and his dog
Skyrm!
At service with the elders. This
looks like an album cover, haha! We love them and we'll miss them a ton.
More silly
pics...
One more
Monday, March 20, 2017
Have you seen my chickens?
March
20th, 2017
This week we went on our last exchange as missionaries. The way
that exchanges are done is different now. Before, you and your leaders would
trade companions and one companionship would stay in your area while the other
went to the leaders' area. But now Salt Lake has asked that we do exchanges
where both companionships work in the leaders' area. So we got to go to Oakdale
this week to work in our leaders' area. It was pretty cool! I absolutely love
Oakdale. The people there are so nice.
I was on exchanges with Hna Williams and we had a really
successful day. We were trying to find former investigators, and the first door
that we knocked on was answered by this nice lady who at first said she was
busy taking care of her grand kids, but then she just let us in and offered us
pizza and tacos. She said the missionaries could come back another day. I just
find it so weird that people trust us, complete strangers, to come into their
house and eat their food.
We talked to a man on the street, and after a few minutes, he was
like, "You should meet my grandchildren!" and he invited us into his
home and we taught four kids, who ranged from like ages 10-17 or something. It
was so cool!
I also got to go back to Modesto 12th ward for a Relief Society
activity. (The Spanish Sister Training Leaders are in that ward, but they live
in Oakdale and cover the northern part of the ward.) I got to see some familiar
faces and I was touched that those sisters were so happy to see me.
One day, Hna Maya and I were knocking on doors and a guy that
answered was really nice but he was kinda distracted and as we were talking to
him about family history he just randomly asked, "Have you seen my
chickens?" and we were like "....No." And he said his chickens
had escaped and so we said we'd keep an eye out for them, and we found them as
soon as we left. We helped him chase his chickens! That was the last thing we
were expecting to do!
This week we found a new investigator!!! Rxxx is her name. She
had met with missionaries before, since her mom was a member and her mom just
passed away recently. The missionaries would visit her mom while she was sick.
Though Rxxx belongs to a Christian church, she likes missionaries and she
was really awesome as we taught her the Restoration and committed her to read
the Book of Mormon. We're excited to meet with her again!
There is also this super nice lady named Lxxx who we met this
week. We talked to her once while she was in her garden getting rid of Aloe
Vera, and I asked if I could have some, and she gave me this giant bag of it!
Hispanic people are just so nice and so willing to share their stuff.
Funny story: remember how I told you that I have been trying to
get over my addiction of pulling my hair, since it makes it look like I'm not
paying attention to anyone? So one time, a while ago, Hna Maya had to go to the
bathroom while we were out biking. So we went to a gas station and I sat and
waited while she went, and she came back out and was like, "Hermana, do
you have your camera?" And I'm like, "No, why?" And she was
like, "I wanted to take a picture of the aliens." And I'm like
"What aliens....oh!" And then I see that the entire store has like
100 aliens all around. I totally didn't notice because I was too busy picking
at my hair!
This is a sign we found at another gas station which we loved.
This is that outside of that gas station. I'm not sure how I
didn't see that the first time...
Just nine more days and then I get to hug you again!!!
Love you!!!
Hermana Aburto
With a sister from our ward
With our ward mission leader and his wife
Monday, March 13, 2017
Last zone training
March 13th, 2017
There comes a time, towards the end
of a missionaries' service, that the adversary attacks and makes missionaries
believe that they weren't successful and that they could've done better.
I got to that point this last week,
and I just broke down. I asked my district leader, Elder Schoenfeld, for a
blessing, and as usual Heavenly Father was able to tell me exactly what I
needed to hear.
The next day, we went to visit our
spiritual powerhouse of a less-active member, Fxxx Oxxx. I felt the Spirit
so strongly as we taught him about the Plan of Salvation. When we got to the
Atonement, I had him read that scripture that I cherish so much found in Alma
36:19-21, where Alma experiences the joy that can only be brought about by
Christ and the Atonement. Then Hno Oxxx told us about how, when he came to
church about two weeks ago after a long time, he was silently debating to
himself whether he was worthy to take the sacrament or not. He took it, and he
felt an overwhelming sense of peace come over him. Then he told us that he
didn't think it was a coincidence that we had found him and started teaching
him to remind him of his beliefs. He said that both my companion and I would
make lasting impressions to him for the rest of his life. I just started
crying. He expressed so perfectly why I needed to be sent here on a mission;
why I needed to meet these specific people that the Lord has placed on my path.
I couldn't stop crying and even now as I'm typing this I can remember how
strong the Spirit was as we visited him and it just makes me so happy and want
to start crying again.
This week we had a zone training;
the last one I will ever have! :( It was about the parables found in the
scriptures.
The things that stuck out most to
me were the following: Elder Schoenfeld talked about lots of times we see
repentance as a glass half empty, meaning we only focus on the things that we
are lacking. But repentance means looking at ourselves as a glass half full,
meaning that you can acknowledge what you are doing right, and add to it. It's
the same with our investigators; rather than just focusing on their faults
(i.e. smoking) focus on what they are doing right, (prayer and scripture study
can help overcome addiction to smoke.) Elder Manly mentioned that when we came
on our missions, we agreed to go find the lost sheep and leave our "99
sheep" back home (our families, our personal lives).
At the end of the zone training, it
was asked that those missionaries who were leaving at the end of the transfer
would offer their testimonies. I once again felt the Spirit incredibly strongly
as I testified of the Atonement and of the principle of turning outward in order
to feel joy.
So one time I was just pondering
during personal study or something. I wondered why it is that mothers have to
go through so much pain in order to give birth to a child. But I thought about
it and I wonder if it's because mother's wouldn't appreciate their child as
much if it were so easy to give birth. The fact that it's so hard just makes
the child so much more special.
Likewise I definitely would not
have appreciated my mission as much if it were easy. This is like the hardest
thing I've ever done. But it's also the best decision I've ever made in my
life, by far.
Hermana Aburto
Monday, March 6, 2017
Last multi-zone conference
March 6th, 2017
It was a really
good week!
We had a
multi-zone conference; the last one I will ever have! :( It was so so so good!
It was, not surprisingly, about teaching repentance and baptizing converts.
It's always fascinating to me how we talk about the same topic over and over
again, yet still get so much out of it.
This time
around, we saw Elder Bednar and Elder Oaks talking to some mission presidents
and their wives. Something that Elder Bednar pointed out was that it is crucial
to involve the Redeemer in repentance. He said that changing behavior without
the Savior is not repentance [it's therapy]. He also taught that we shouldn't
be afraid of repetitious teaching, which I know to be true since most of the
time it takes a couple thousand times to teach something before it finally
clicks in someone's mind. One of the mission presidents wives mentioned that
the adversary is aware of repentance, and makes people believe that they can't
do it. Another one's wife mentioned that a lot of missionaries don't believe
that they will make it to the celestial kingdom. If you don't believe you will
make it, then you don't believe in repentance! Or the Atonement!
Elder Bednar also said how great of a leader Alma was. In Mosiah 23:27 it reads,
"Alma went forth and stood among them," He didn't stand above the
people that he led, but among them. (Itwas mentioned during the conference that
the mission presidents and their wives should go out with their missionaries to
teach them.)
Hna Maya and I
also re-listened to Bill Carpenter's conversion story this week, and a part
that stood out to me this time is that he said that missionaries in the MTC
probably pray 15 times a day, meaning that there were at least 45,000 prayers
going on in that building (back then when he was a missionary). That's one
reason why the MTC is such a heavenly place! And he said that missionaries are
added to the temple prayer roll, and are prayed for every day by people that
don't even know us personally. I think even one of the general authorities has
mentioned that missionaries get prayed for more than the prophet or something,
I can't remember, don't quote me on that.
But I can certainly say that I feel the prayers that everyone offers for me and my fellow missionaries! I'm once again so incredibly thankful for this holy calling!
But I can certainly say that I feel the prayers that everyone offers for me and my fellow missionaries! I'm once again so incredibly thankful for this holy calling!
During district
meeting we talked about this zone conference and I learned that there aren't
really "steps" to repentance, rather there are "elements"
to repentance. There isn't a specific order that the elements go in (recognize,
confess to God, restitution, don't repeat mistake again, etc.). I just found it
all really interesting and I'm so grateful to be able to apply repentance to my
life.
About that
repetitious teaching though, one of our less-actives Mxxx Cxxx, is a perfect
example of that. She wants to know which church is true, but I feel like she
never understands what we're trying to teach her about finding her answer. It's
not enough to just pray, but she needs to be willing to act, too. She hasn't
been reading the scriptures too much, and she doesn't want to come to church.
You have to DO and then KNOW and no matter how many times we explain it, she
just doesn't get it! Come on, son!
This week we
were finally able to meet with a less-active member Mxxx Rxxx who we've
been wanting to work with. He seems really solid, but he works on Sunday so
that makes it hard for him. We were able to take another less-active, Txxx,
to see him. It's always cool to help our members see the awesomeness of sharing
the gospel with other people.
Yesterday we
knocked on the door of a man who has met with missionaries before, and seems to
be really familiar with our church. He seems really interested! But I must
admit, Hna Maya and I were kinda distracted as we were talking to him because
Alvin and the Chipmunks was on his TV in the background, haha! But anyways we
are really excited because he said we could come back and talk to him tonight!
We'll see how that goes.
Last week we
also met with another former investigator who was a referral from a less-active
member. He seems to have gone through a hard time recently. We hope that we can
help him to understand the Plan of Salvation! We will be meeting with him tomorrow.
I only have like
23 days left!!!! What is this garbage!!!! Just kidding I'm super excited but
sad at the same time...
Have a great
week!
Love,
Monday, February 27, 2017
Wherefore can ye doubt?
February 27th, 2017
This week was a really successful week, even though we didn't officially get new investigators, the Lord has helped us be successful in other ways.
This week we met these two sweet less-active teenage girls. They were so cute! They've been through a lot and so they're pretty shy but we had a really awesome lesson with them about God's love, prayer, and scripture study.
We met with a man whose ex-wife was a member of our church. He doesn't believe in God, but we had a good visit with him, and we brought our member, Hna Mxxx with us. Even though he didn't wind up being interested in our message, he said that if he were to join a church, he would join ours, because he has noticed that our church members are really good people. We talked about charity with him. Overall our visit was just a really good "touchpoint" for him.
Oh yeah, and thanks so much for the family history stuff that you sent me last week! We've pretty much been talking about family history with everyone that we meet now, and here's an example of how awesome it is!
Last night we knocked on a random door and an old man named Hno. Jxxx answered, and we talked to him about how the Savior made it possible for our families to be forever, and mentioned family history to him, and asked if he knew his grandparents and what not, and he really liked it! He then asked us questions about our beliefs and we asked if we can come back this week and he said yes! He said that he believes that all religions are good, and that he is Catholic, but I'm so glad that he was able to feel the Spirit of Elijah as we talked about family history with him.
This week we were talking with a man who suffers from something like anxiety, and he's a major introvert. It just made me so sad to talk with him because you can tell that he is super lonely. It just reminded me a lot of how lonely I used to feel. I really truly would not wish that on anyone. It's not a fun experience.
But as I pondered about that I was thinking about how I used to not believe it when people would tell me that I was doing a good job. I thought about how Mami told me that God sends those people to me, and they are acting as angels from God to let me know that He is pleased with me. Then this week during district meeting, we read in 1 Nephi 4:3 where it says, "Ye also know that an angel hath spoken unto you; wherefore can ye doubt?" So, it's saying exactly the same thing Mami told me!
I was also reading in the newest edition of the Ensign and I love what Elder Bednar said about Nephi and the bands around his arms. He said that Nephi didn't pray to have his circumstances change, rather he prayed to have the strength to change his circumstances. And he prayed in that way because he knew of the enabling power of the Atonement of Jesus Christ. I just absolutely love that and can testify that that is 100% true!!
Love you!!!
Hermana Aburto
P.S. This week a member fed us tinga, and it was the best thing ever! Can you make me some tinga when I get home? And ravioli 'cause that is also the best.
Monday, February 20, 2017
Reunited and it feels so good
February 20th, 2017
It's been a great week!
This week I was reunited with
Sister Talbot, whom I absolutely adore! We had a zone dinner at the home of one
of the stake presidency members, and we got to giggle a lot together, just like
old times. I'm so grateful I get to serve near her during my last transfer!
A few days ago, we were biking down
the street at night, and Sister Maya didn't see a pot-hole, and she ran into it
and fell off her bike. She hurt her knee and we got help from a member,
thankfully, and she's been recovering since then. One night, she and I talked
about how, after a trial like that happens, some cool miracle will come about
soon after.
Well, one day we were knocking on
doors as usual, and one Hispanic lady opened the door, and I mentioned to her
that we teach about how families can be eternal. She said, "I want to be
eternal!" and she invited us in and told us about how her husband passed
away in the year 2000 and she wants to be with him again. It was super cool to
be able to testify to her that she could be reunited with him some day! We left
her with a Plan of Salvation pamphlet and a Book of Mormon, and she said we
could come back some other time....
Sadly though when we called her to
confirm the appointment, she suddenly told us that she was Christian (meaning
that she didn't want to learn more about us at the moment) but that she would
read the Book of Mormon and call us if she is interested to learn more. But
honestly, I am not discouraged by this. I know that we at least gave her a
major touch point in her life, and it's so important to try to leave copies of
the Book of Mormon in people's homes, because you just never know who can get
their hands on it, read it, and feel of the undeniable power and Spirit that it
brings.
We visited a less-active, Mxxx Cxxx, and brought a member with us, Lxxx Cxxx. Hna Lxxx was so amazing!
They got along really well, and I loved hearing her share her testimony and her
conversion story to Hna Mxxx Cxxx. I'm such a huge fan of member missionary
work!
One night we were walking and there
was this guy sitting on the sidewalk and we started talking to him. His name is
Sxxx and he was super friendly and started asking us questions like, "What
are you doing out so late?" and "Do you get paid to do this?"
and stuff like that. We explained who we were and he was so cute; he gave us
tips on how to talk to people since he works as a salesman. He also told us his
story, how he used to be involved in some serious things and he used to be
Christian, and he said that by meeting us he was reminded that he should look
into coming back to God. It was such a tender mercy for him and for us to be
able to talk to him. He just made our week! I really hope that he'll be able to
meet with the missionaries again (he lives out of our mission).
We visited the less-active Fxxx Oxxx again, and he was awesome. He said he would come to church, and... he
did! We were so happy to see him there! The ward was so welcoming to him and he
really enjoyed it.
Thanks so much for all that stuff
you sent about family history, that is absolutely perfect and I want to try
some of that stuff out.
I love you! I can't believe I only
have a little over a month left of my mission! I truly want to follow Elder
Holland's advice and enjoy every minute of it!
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